I have a
complicated relationship with the place I live. I was born in northern Alberta,
I’ve lived in one place or other in the province all my life, and I don’t
really see myself moving elsewhere. But I’ve always felt out of place here, to
some degree.
Growing up in the
oil and gas boomtown of Grande Prairie, I knew almost no one else my age who really
liked reading, let alone writing, and so I rarely talked about these interests
of mine with anyone. I did have a few book-loving friends, like John, whose
family had moved from England. One day I pulled a book from his shelf that I
was curious about and flipped through its pages.
“What’s a hobbit?” I asked.
“You should read that,” he said.
“It’s really good.”
I did read it. He was right. I went
on and read the rest of that author’s books. No, better to say I devoured them.
Or they devoured me. New vistas of story opened up for me with Tolkien’s books.
Here was a writer who had created an entire world, and I wanted more of that
kind of thing. I wanted books that would overwhelm, challenge, and change me.
That desire took me from fantasy and science fiction to Dickens, Tolstoy, Dostoevsky,
Woolf, Orwell, Joyce, Calvino, Borges, Pynchon, Ondaatje …
Now I think it’s
a good thing for a writer to be born in the wrong place. Maybe all writers are,
or feel themselves to be, and that’s one of the reasons why we write. There’s a
lot about the politics and culture of this province that makes me weep -- for
what we’re throwing away, what we’re ignoring and destroying in our
pathological stampede for wealth and power.
But I love this place, too, and
even though I don’t write about it directly a lot of the time (I write fantasy
for the most part), I suspect that in all sorts of ways I don’t even notice, Alberta
shows up in my work (come to think of it, there's a pathological stampede for power in my current fantasy trilogy...).
Our seasons. Our
weather. Our landscapes. Our cityscapes. Our perceived remoteness, in other words our distance from the places where the supposedly important stuff happens.
Even something like the kind of light we get here probably has more of an impact on the way I see the world than I realize.
Even something like the kind of light we get here probably has more of an impact on the way I see the world than I realize.
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I read your post and felt just a tiny bit less alone.
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